--Straight From The Heart

... Friendship comes before Love. True. But wait, this is not about between a guy and a girl and what it seems you want it to be about. What I mean is Friendship.. Friendship? You get the idea. As to which we refer as to those crazy people you hang out with like every second and every minute of your everyday life, yet admit it or not, you had so much fun and they made your damned day one of the greatest. Most people don't realize how they really affect your life. Some just take it for granted. Some would take friendship as a "PERSONAL NEED" (you know what I mean) and some would even just throw it away in a snap. Anyway, to cut this drama short, I just want to show how much I treasure each and one of those adorable friends and that they are those pieces of the puzzle that made made me complete my picture of LiFE."

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=116007445159094 <---  This like 3 months ago. (Hindi ko lang in-expose) 

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=104302409662931 <--- Break Time Bonding

http://www.facebook.com/media/albums/?id=100002495160621 <--- How they have like so much faces in those albums:) iLOVE those memories:') 

FOR DOUCHEBAGS WITH GIRLFRIENDS !

-while ur ignoring her,

Another guy is giving her attention.

-while ur giving her problems,

Another guy is listening.

-while ur too busy for her,

Another guy is making time for her.

-while ur making her cry,

Another guy is trying to make her smile again.

-when ur not sure if u still want her,

Another guy has already figured it out.

~Blind Heart

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

Infatuation, Inlove, Immaturity.

• Infatuation. Parang other term for crush, puppy love or panandaliang attraction. Minsan, lahat tayo akala natin love na, pero Infatuation lang pala. Gusto mo lang ang isang tao kasi may isang bagay lang na interesting sa kanya. Madalas to sa mga taong first time mo nakilala o nakita. Pero minsan, eto ang isa sa mga pagkakamali ng mga couple na kaka-start lang. Kasi, you keep on thinking yung bagay na interesting sa kanya, that's why you like him/her. Lahat naman tayo may limits. Masama ang sobra-sobra. Nakakaumay ang araw-araw. In short, parang nauumay kana sa isang bagay na lagi mong kasama araw-araw. Parang nag-ulam ka ng hotdog sa isang linggo, maaumay at mauumay kana at syempre mag-hahanap kana ng iba. Yun ang infatuation. Parang posporo na nauubos rin ang pulbura.

• Inlove. Masaya ma-inlove sabi nila. Pero masakit rin sa huli. Well, masasabi mo lang na inlove ka kung masaya ka lagi kasama siya kahit araw-araw pa. Inshort, hindi nakakaumay na siomai. Haha. Pero minsan, masasabi mo lang na INLOVE ka pag wala na siya. Yung sure ka na may feelings pa kahit tapos na. Yung naaalala mo pa rin siya kahit may sumunod nang iba sa kanya. Naka-move on ka, pero kumakabog ang dibdib mo pag nakikita mo siyang may kasama nang iba. Pero ang love minsan, may halong sakripisyo para sumaya kayong pareho. Pwedeng hold on pa, pwede rin na magpalaya na. Sabi nga nila, kung mahal mo siya, palayain mo na. Well, andaming pwedeng explanations para sa mga inlove/love. Mararamdaman mo lang yung fireworks sa dibdib mo pag LOVE na.

• Immaturity. Eto yung madalas sa nasosobrahan sa expectations. Minsan, nagmama-ala fairy tales, koreanovela, etc .. ang isip. Eto yung mga taong OA na kung mag-isip. Minsan, anak kaagad, asawa kaagad. Pero pwede rin hindi pa. Haha. Eto kasi yung tipo na i-lilike mo yung lahat sa kanya. Parang sa facebook, lahat ng ipopost nya sa fb nya, ililike mo rin. Tapos, mag-popost sa wall nya ng mga cheesy lines, or pictures na may love. Eto rin minsan yung halos araw-araw mo siya gusto itext. Yung oras-oras mo siya gusto makita, segu-segundo na phone calls. Minsan, nagagalit sa mababaw na bagay, minsan iniiyakan pa kahit super babaw lang. Yung minsan, OA na. Pag iniisip mo na umiiyak ka, gusto mo i-comfort ka nya. Pag sinabi mong na-mimiss mo siya, gusto mo may reply kaagad na miss you too. In short, di mo binibigyan ng time yung partner mo para ma-miss ka. Di naman kasi lahat ng I LOVE YOU mo, kailangan may I LOVE YOU TOO kaagad. Di porket, hindi siya nagreply, iisipin mo kaagad na hindi kana nya mahal. Inshort ulit, madali kang MAG-ALANGAN sa mga bagay na mababaw. Antaas kasi ng expectations mo.

비 (Rain)

We'll always be like this

How long will we pretend

Is it just me or my dreams

That you and me I never intend

To be in a together forever land

Don't you care about me anymore?

Ask me, and we both know I'd lie

As the rain pour

Feels like I just want to give a sigh

For confusion and complication arise

It's not the feeling of not getting over

But the feeling of hope and chance

That you and I can still be each other's lover

And still have each others' glance

For it's you, that completes the incomplete ME

I'm not fooling myself

It's the thought of you

That I know it's he that is being fooled

The guilt is unbearable too

Sorry is just not enough

I maybe wrong; which I am

Is it love? Pity? Guilt?

Whatever it is someday I'll come

I wish I could rewind what I built

And may it be you and me

~Someone Like YOU*

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http://youtu.be/Rqgjaw7ZiG4

Shock ".

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Today had been kinda tough

Though I felt a little lighter

As time went by and had a laugh

Way to go, fighter!

And so I thought as Earth revolves

Going home is all I've waited

Who could've thought

As we seated

A never forgotten note

One seat away, It's you I saw

I can't help it

I tried, but you glanced

Made my heart skip a beat

Wanted to cry but I should hold it fast

That's one truth I can't deny

Never deny, PLEASE

I saw how you behaved

Do you feel it too at least?

How it crashed like a wave?

And how we're trying so hard,cold-hearted

I can't tell what destiny wants

But luck do cooperate

However, it's been months

How could I feel it's not yet too late

Don't do this to me,baby

I beg of you, tell me

Let's not play games

You know what you and I see

Unforgotten names

Still echo in my ears

You know how much you've meant in my life

I know how true you were 

Why not continue the fight

Or you had chosen which is safer?

I understand yet You're still the one :(

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4See Behind Every Scene

      

    boy
     immature, pretentious

     playing, pretending, vindicate

    heart, pillow, road, glasses

       pity, learning, forgiving

     nice, patient

    girl

    principle

     firm, independent

     fighting, waiting, watching

     rose, pen, girl, school

     flirting, hiding, hoping

   hate, sorrow

   immorality

    love

   forever, true

  cuddling, singing, smiling

   bracelet, phone, tears, cremation

   wishing, hoping, crying

   ending, wrong

    distance

    start

   new, hopeful

    stay, persevere, change

     roses, ring, monster, food

     quarrel, hating, quitting 

      limited, finite

    end

Sakit Sa ULo

Sa bawat ihip ng hangin

Pakiramdaman ang lamig

At baka ako'y maisip rin

Alamin at dinggin aking hiling

Yakap mo lang ang aking ibig

Hindi kinakailangang mag-isip ng malalim

Panaginip na ka'y hirap maatim

May araw kayang ito'y maging totoo

Kung gayo'y daig ko pa ang nanalo sa lotto

Makita ka lang ay okay na ako

Sinusubukan ko lang magsulat at gumawa

Sa tagalog na baka aki'y makayanan

Pero sa totoo lang

Ako'y nahihirapan

Kaya naisip kong, ang kalokohang ito'y 

TAPUSiN NA. 

XD

-Blank-

Different paths we're taking

Let's just say it's part of life

This could be destiny

That tells us a part of the truth or of a lie

But I can't afford forgetting "US"

Saw you once, what a glance

Skipped a beat or two

Of the heart with a different hue

I felt so dominated

Of the feeling being led

Everyday I give a sigh

To the things we should have shared

How could you be so blind?

What the hell, you never cared

I'm okay, don't even think about it

Writing this for you dear

I feel so numb, nothing

Gone is the feeling of fear

Fear that something

Is hidden behind these words

You're not you

You were never you

Listen and understand

Everything now's blank
I'm free, Absolutely Free

♡ August

Not much had happened

First week was not a big thing

Something in me I mend

I can hear my heart finally sing

Classifications of feelings

Third week may be a celebration

More like an irony though

Can a tragedy be an occasion

Celebrate a break up or so

A month after last month's fourteenth

Can I still manage to love?

Can I still give a chance?

Can I have a sign from up above?

Or should just keep my distance?

Patience darling, Patience

Few more hours

New day, new month arrives

I wish of the existence of stars

Talk to me once again, we jive

Remain as our hearts and minds

Once again, BiND.

▌▌ SoLidarity ►

[~ I luckily found in my Case Digest copy. I can still clearly remember how, why and when I wrote this :'>]

Nature and I connect

Making most of this correct

Fresh air I can feel

Smile through the sight of the hill

I thank thee; solidarity, my friend

Rose, biscuits and space

They're all I need in this phase

How solemn can this day be?

As trees had come to see me

Amazed at things, I see solidarity

Temperatures' a different fold

Not too hot, not too cold

Music appears to be my friend too

No more songs that'll make me feel blue

You've always been and will always be

My friend, Solidarity

"A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows. Love can erase an awful past, love can be yours, you'll see at last. To feel that love, it makes you sigh,To have it leave, you'd rather die.You hope you've found that special rose,
'cause you love and care for the one you chose.

08 After 14 ❀

[ NOTE: This post should be after "07 After 13" I just edited some things so it was posted as the "latest post". NVM. :) ]

Feeling so relished,

Now I know everything's finished,

I'm starting to feel new,

Trying to see the other view,

Of everything that I have seen before

Wearing a button-filled sweater,

I never felt the pain until sometime later,

The wound that I have gained,

Wondering why it marked like a letter "J",

Maybe a destined coincidence

What could be its meaning?,

When I have forgotten and left you completely,

Does it mean that I should miss you?,

Or is time testing me of what I have put myself into,

Remind me that like the wound, you, inflicted me pain

In this hallway, alone writing,

Put on my earphones listening,

To the song I used to tag you in,

The song which had the title and lyrics in irony,

Stereos' "Butterflies" is its name

I hear those songs we used to listen to,

But never to worry,too,

Because all those times I hear those songs,

They're like just an ordinary songs now,

Should never be given meaning and should never be remorsed

THE STORY BEHiND:

"I greeted the day with a smile. Everything went well. And LiTERALLY, I really had a wound [ I included the picture of it, if anyone's curious ]. I think  I got that when I got out the jeepney I was on, held the door then some pain scratched my wrist. It really felt like just a scratched so I didn't gave it too much attention. When I got home, there I saw and added it in the poem again. Really weird."

Last Episode ✿⊰ 07 after 14

It's been a week we're keeping profiles low

How could time be this slow?

What the heck, we shouldn't even care

Things are just hard for us to bear

Good thing is, everything's over now

As I pass by my previous writings,

I can't help but to laugh at those things

Weird yet I don't deny any of it 

I just let my heart speak out and think

Of the right words to say

I did my part; ever thought about yours?

Do you feel guilt? Or even a curse?

Just wondering why

Why can't you look at me straight in the eye?

Seems like you've finally lowered your pride

This is the last for you,

The chances you blew

This is the last for us,

Moments that could've been a blast

I've had my last cry

I wish you luck,

I wish you love

Someday mistakes will not be repeated

Let me be the last to be seated

in the corner crying for your lost chances

"Some things are just aren't meant to be."

H.A.P.P.Y. 28ღ

 HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY  TO YOU GUYS :]] 


*A LiTTLE GiFT FROM ME TO YOU :* 


[HOPE YOU LiKE iT, SUBUKAN NiYO LANG NA HiNDi. HHAXD] JOKE~!
                    
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i LOVE YOU GUYS ~! 

♡

BSiLLY ｡◕‿◕｡

I never thought of you as a friend,

Nor thought that I'd feel something like this,

So simple like you, so silent.

Talented, smart and as cute as is,

Smiled at me, blurted out the words

that's gonna make me feel at ease

The day after, you've been too kind,

Wore the same color. blue so cute,

How could we be so blind,

And again the next day, again with the color blue,

I think I'm starting to like; love BLUE

Everything starts at the end,

Hypothetically, everything has always been that way,

From me being torn into pieces and lost direction,

Is now thinking of what i should be saying at this section,

You're really is such an inspiration, "lover boy" :)

THE STORY BEHiND:

"I'm really nervous saying anything about this. Haha ='_'= but I guess I can say a few.  He's a secret guy. Actually just an inspiration. He's really awesome. That's it ,enough, everything's in there.^_^ "

04 After 05 ⊱✿

It's been horrible nowadays,

Maybe this is really the stage,

Of moving on, what do you say?,

Are you feeling it too? Stuck in a cage,

Wanted to be free, trying; but can't.

What would it be really like without "us"?,

I still don't know, I need the answer,

As soon as possible, can you tell me fast?,

I'd made up my mind, 50% i guess sir,

Such fool, is what I have always been.

Will you be the one?,

Make it last forever,

Could you be that someone?,

Someone who'll leave me never,

I loved you once, always have, and always will .. ♥

THE STORY BEHiND:

"This is where the tragic confusion started. It's like I know it's over. But then there's something telling me I can move on but don't leave him completely. It's always the thought of that dream/ nightmare .. or whatever it is. I know I can make a decision. Someday.."

07 After 13 ❃

Woke up cold, dizzy,

" You have a hangover, missy ",

By 7:30 I got home,

Realizing something I know,

It's my mom's special day, oh my !

Waiting in line,

For the office to open by nine,

Got tired of standing,

In the middle room I saw you entering,

Accidentally you and me had a glimpse of what used to be

I saw a part of you while I'm in the test,

Doing my best not to look at my guest,

To focus on the important matter,

To show you that I've moved on; though sadder,

Force myself that you and I is done and over

I may have moved on,

But this lost love will keep sailing on,

A promise I made,

A promise that'll be safe,

More like of a pledge to everyone I laid

I'll not force you to be back,

'Cause I'm tired of putting everything in one sack,

It's your choice, your decision,

It may be true or just be forever an illusion,

You'll still be my everything ..

THE STORY BEHiND:

"Seventh day of the month and thirteen days since we've been apart.  from the words itself, obviously I kinda had a couple of drinks. It really is a downfall on my part. Why did everything that happened on that day have to be so unexpected?"

05 After 10 ∞

Aware that you are no longer mine,

I woke up numb and knew I'd lie,

To everyone who'd ask me what and why,

Shall I accept that nothing really lasts,

That it is now just a sad goodbye

Here I am, at the center of the intersection,

Don't know where to put my concentration,

Waiting for you, and this is what I get,

Not even a shadow of you I met,

Maybe it's just not meant to be

Although everything seems to be falling apart,

It feels like I should be now far in the dark,

Between us is like a door closing, 

But in that nightmare or maybe a dream,

I still chose you

I see you're okay; you're fine,

Why can't I cross the line?,

Call me crazy, tell me I'm blind,

Getting over you is hard and I cannot hide,

That you're the puzzle that completes my everyday life

With you was like forever,

Though we've just started early October,

Without you now is like years,

We've been apart for only ten days,

Who wouldn't have thought today is

FEBRUARY'S 5TH DAY..

THE STORY BEHiND:

"This poem was written on the fifth day of February. Which was supposed to be a special day. I felt devastated. Every part of the stanza described what I did and felt that same day. Seeing us not together that day was like a nightmare; So painful. On the third stanza it's more of making a decision in a dream which felt like real, I felt the tears and the pain and the goodbye and the reason of waiting and happiness. I haven't really thought of writing a poem about it but incidentally the sister of my high school substitute teacher's sister asked me a favor of doing any literary work for one of the school's organization as soon as possible. And this is the output. My first poem made which you can say is written from the heart; a ripped, broken heart."